Name:Ginny Country:United States State:Texas Birthday:7/28/1989 Gender:Female
Interests:iRO, Gaia Online, Cats and animals in general (except anything parasitic), the human and animal mind, philosophy, anime, drawing. Expertise:Sleeping, dying on RO, writing, psychology, animal behaviorism. Occupation:Student Industry:Psychology
YAY! Only about a week until A-kon. But I still haven't made my black cat ears or puppy headband yet. Eep. o.o;; I had better get started on them quick or else I won't have anything awesome to wear besides my drooping cat and small ribbons.
...I just got an idea. I should make a romantic leaf as well. But the trick is, what kind of material would I use that's non toxic?
I level at prison now instead of stings. Stings fucking sucks compared to prison. XD I can get good loot as well as nice rares, and better exp. x3 Plus, the enemies there don't slaughter me as fast as stings do.
iRO is holding a big anniversary event right now with 1.5x exp. for a whole month! :D The problem is that you have to wear this baseball cap to get the bonus. XD But hey, it actually looks pretty darn snazzy on me. x3
I'm taking advantage of this event to the fullest. I'm gonna try to get from 80 to 90 by the end of the event. It'll be sexy. <3
Oh yeah, check this awesome movie out. This is a gigantic guild on EuRO breaking a massive precast. I wish my guild was this big and powerful. T.T
Alex went home the day before yesterday and is now back at his home. He seems to be a lot happier there, and I'm glad he is. Cause that's really all that matters. /ok We now have contact mostly on RO now and just last night he went to floras and leveled his mage a bit and I followed him around on my wizzie killing any bugs that happened to come after him. It was great fun. XD
In other news, only 4 days of school left for me. YAY! :D And shortly after that, I get MORE SCHOOL! That's right, I have to go to summer school for most of the season since I'm missing a credit that I didn't find out about until way later. -___- Stupid winfree. They must not have accurately kept up with how much stuff I had finished. So now I have to spend a lot of the summer making up that damned credit. But, oh well. At least I get Friday's off as well as the weekends. It lasts from 7:30 am to 1 pm though. x.X I'm gonna have to get up rediculously early. But at least it ends at a reasonable time period that way I can do whatever else I want during the summer, like RO. :D (What a surprise. >.>)
But on a more positive side, A-kon's coming up soon. x3 Thank god I get Friday and the weekend off from summer school or else I wouldn't be able to go all three days. :x
Emily managed to peer pressure me and Kels into being ninjas on Friday. XD But hey, at least we get to act completely silly since we can't usually other days. And on Saturday, we can all go again and look pretty. I'll wear my drooping cat and small ribbons and I'll let Emily borrow my Lenne cosplay and Kels borrow some extra RO headgears I made, ex: mystic rose, poring hat, deviruchi hat, puppy headband, black cat ears.
Matt and his co workers and coming too, apparently. I wonder if they'll cosplaying or acting like crazy ninjas like we will. :0 Russel is also thinking about coming as well, I hope so. The more the merrier. :D
Anyway, I gotta get onto my laundry and perhaps some homework before I go to bed. Hell, maybe I can level my sage a bit tonight as well and get spell breaker for her. <3 Spell breaker. So much fun in WoE to piss off the precast. XD
I have some unfortunate news. Alex and I are no longer together. Shocker, isn't it? Most thought we were a match made in heaven, and we thought so as well. But, now we both know that it probably just wasn't meant to be. We had been together for almost two years and our relationship was a mature one, but it doesn't nessessarily guarantee anything. Anything can happen, you know?
The reason for why our relationship stopped was a number of things that just kind of added up together instead of one large problem causing the conflict. For one thing, we went too fast into the relationship in the beginning. We of course met online, and didn't even know what eachother looked like in real life. We didn't know eachother for very long before getting into a serious relationship, either. We had only been talking online for about two weeks before we decided that we wanted to get into a serious relationship.
Also, our relationship was a phone one for the longest time before we actually lived together. After a while of our phone relationship, Alex began to feel slightly that we were growing apart, even though I didn't feel so at all. However, he didn't tell me because 1.) he wasn't sure if we were growing apart for sure and 2.) he didn't want to scare me. Overall, however, our phone relationship was very satisfying. The problems started when we began making arrangements for him to come down and live with me. He said he was relying on his feelings instead of logic to make the decision at the time, and at the same time was feeling slightly pressured.
Upon living with eachother, our relationship was still a mature one, but he began to get to know the true me now that we lived together in the same house. He says I didn't lose any of the qualities that attracted him to me that I had in the first place, but he also found other qualities about my personality that he just didn't really want in a life partner. Not problems with my personality, but more like clashes. But every time he began to think of them, he was still pretty sure that he loved me and just kind of blew it off. There were also qualities that he wanted in a life partner that I just couldn't give him. I would ask him about what he does want in a relationship, but he could never really answer the question. He felt that if he went into a discussion about it, it would be like he was trying to change my personality just to save the relationship. And he simply just didn't feel it was right. I'm pretty glad he feels that way. 'Cause loving someone just as they are is true unconditional love. He wanted me to stay the way I was and find someone that I could be my true self around and have that person love me for the way I am. Which shows that he may not "love" me, but he does still care for me. And because of that, we're still great friends.
On the day of the break up, it was very hard for me to take it in all at once, and, believe me, I cried a lot. It was hard for me to accept the fact that he just didn't love me anymore. The idea of us breaking up just seemed ludicrous to me. But with time and talks between us, I was able to get over the loss and learn to move on. Which was pretty surprising for me, because at first, I thought losing him would be my worst nightmare. And now, I feel...rather relaxed. I actually felt slightly trapped in the relationship and didn't even realize it. I feel I have more free will now. Alex didn't limit me at all or anything, I kind of limited myself.
So, in conclusion, we both are over it and now we may not love eachother as boyfriend and girlfriend, but we do love eachother as friends! :D
This Friday, Alex will be returning home to his family back up in Chilowak, B.C. From there we'll have contact over ventrilo and R.O and still remain R.O buddies. :D See? Happy ending.
Well, good news. A week or so ago my mom and dad talked it over and decided they may not get divorced after all. Thank god too, cause that would've caused a ton of complications as you've heard in my last entry. I feel better now. =)
Right now, I'm kind of irritated because I'm hungry and my mood chemicals are totally wack right now. Recently I found out what that condition is called from my psychologist. But I can't remember right now because it's such a damn long word. And just thinking hard about it is pissing me off. >.<
I've been really sick and fucking tired of high school life as well. I just wanna get the fuck out of there cause I'm vomitingly sick of all the bloody teenage drama. People talking shit about others for bullshit reasons, getting all offended and defensive at the tiniest things, threatening to beat people up, when will it end?! >.< My god, I swear the people at my school are some of the most immature idiots in the entire district. For god sakes, can we say "forgot how to grow up"? Some of them can't even speak correctly, it's really freaking sad. And did I mention that seemingly I'm one of the only students there that actually CARES about getting out of high school and getting the best job I can get?! Most people there just take the easy way out and get a GED, lazy asses. They think they'll be fine and be able to get any job they want, but they freaking can't! They're ignorant to actually think such a thing! God freaking damn! >.<
*ahem* Okay, I'm done. Time to eat something before I keel over and starve. x.x
Freaking joy. Of all the lovely things to happen. I thought it would never happen, but it did. My parents are divorcing. . .
Yep, it's true. Apparently Mom has been thinking of the subject for a while now without actually telling anyone. My parents' marriage isn't THAT troubled, though. Neither of them drink, are abusive, irresponsible with me or anything else, or go out to strip clubs in the middle of the night or anything. So it's really strange that they're actually divorcing.
Truthfully, I think the real reason Mom wanted a divorce was because she may have just felt that the love between her and Dad just kind of faded over the years and that it was just time for her to move on. She's not planning on remarrying either, from what I know. And it's funny, because just recently she and dad hit their 25-year Anniversary, and now look what's happened. =/
When it call came so quick, I was having trouble believing at first. I was pretty traumatized, I must say. Well, not bursting in sobs or anything, but more like, well, being like "Uhh, wait...you're not serious are you?" kind of thing. Even now, this still feels all wack to me. Surprisingly, I'm taking it pretty well. I know what I'm gonna do, for the most part. I'll stay here at home, finish school, and live with Dad with all the kitties and the house I'm familiar with. Sure, I'll miss my mom a lot, but I just don't wanna leave my house I'm so accustomed to.
Overall, I'll be fine. I'm probably moving out in a year anyway, so I'm not taking the whole thing that harshly. Still, home life just won't be the same without Mom around. No Sterling, no voice of hers nagging me to clean the litter boxes, no silent typing on her laptop coming from downstairs, nothing...
Plus, she did most of the housework, too. Dad and I will be busier than ever now with housework. ._.;; I hope to God it doesn't weigh me down so that I have no time to finish homework or have simple recreation time playing RO or something. Maybe Alex can help out for the little while he's still down here. But when he goes back to his home, then what? XD
Speaking of which, Alex decided not to stay here in Texas with me after all. We're not breaking up or anything, he just misses his home a lot. I know he'll be much better off here, because he doesn't like it that much down here in Cow Country. Just doesn't feel like home here to him. Which is understandable. So Alex and I will be going back to our phone/internet relationship again for a while. XD Probably at least a year until I get out of high school and leave for Seattle where I'm closer by to him. It's kind of a long way off. ^^
Wow, long entry. Heh.
Mood: Lack of Seratonin (In other words, I feel completely crappy.)
Very sleepy
Relieved
Irritated
Lack of Seratonin (In other words, I feel completely crappy.)
